The empty world within

I sit in the darkness, covered by a blanket used a million times.

I’m under a roof but I feel homeless.

I have a family but I feel like an orphan. I seemingly have everything that someone could consider as being privileged but I feel deprived, poor, and empty.

In the realm of poetry, emotions often take center stage.

Why not in a home?

Is it because I am not surrounded by poets and artists or do we live in emotional dark times?

I thought emotions are the very basis of every person's life experience.

Yet, we ignore them.

I thought emotions were ok.

There must be a reason for them to exist. Instead, I learn to suppress, deny and hide them.

As I learn to suppress them, I loose a piece of my truth, a piece of myself, a piece of my desires.

If I could capture the essence of emotional neglect in one word, this word could be emptiness.

It feels like starvation. Million fractures of myself feel stuck in a deep state of lack.

I am not supposed to suffer yet I am suffering by what is not there. Something is missing…

How many times have we tried to escape from the emptiness, the internal starvation, the void?

How many times did we try to fill the void with things like drugs, alcohol, screen time, shopping, food, overworking?

While all the above might offer temporary relief, it is time to change our way of being with ourselves when we feel empty.

The time has come to ask ourselves: What am I truly missing?

Try to feel for what you are empty of. Is it understanding?

Is it encouragement?

Is it togetherness? Is it recognition?

Is it belonging?

Is it nurturing?

Is it emotional support?

The good news is that we can work on manifesting anything we are lacking. We often believe that emptiness is something that we should avoid. Maybe we believe we are cursed to feel that way forever and is unchangeable but healing emptiness is a matter of meeting our unmet needs.