Change

Merging and absorbing everything and everyone felt like the ultimate truth of this universe. Oneness - so all-inclusive and magical.

If I could break the way you see yourself, you could see that you don't deserve to be in this place, I told myself. I looked at everyone and everything around me. Who am I? I shake my head. It felt like a wake-up call, a divine slap that cracked my heart and smashed my whole reality. This thought created the exact opposite state of oneness.

The torture of loneliness began. The agony of not belonging became so strong that I couldn't breathe. I sat in my car. Where am I going? I have nowhere to go. I have nobody. These thoughts feel so intense within me, and the loneliness so incredibly painful. I am literally dying.

Instead of perceiving everything as a unified energy, I started perceiving myself as separate. People seem like a threat. I'm scared! I don't feel that my close people are accepting and absorbing me deeply. I have nobody to be in a relationship with. I am alone and separate. I want to run away from everyone.

I started breathing. I breathed on a cold window and wrote in the mist: Change!

The time that you stop running from yourself has come, and this is because a mirror has appeared in front of me. I look at the reflection, and I either choose to embrace it or reject it. I either choose to smash it or to look deeper.

Welcome to planet Earth. Are you ready to embrace your shadows? Are you ready to embrace all your suppressed and forgotten parts within you? Are you ready to be with yourself here and now? Are you ready to love every single part within you back to unity?

Loving you was a breakthrough, and I realized that the easiest thing we can do is to stay in the darkness. We have become comfortable being uncomfortable because we don't feel anymore. Now, I have embraced the most unacceptable parts within me, and I will carry on doing it. I choose this discomfort because, at the end of the day, it is the greatest gift we can give to ourselves and the world at large.

"Understanding resistance to change" is a Sacred Geometry Symbol that can help you.